When i grow up...

2009-09-03T00:46:00.001+08:00

it hurts so bad.
im so heartbroken, that i dont know whats left in me anymore.

2009-09-02T01:48:00.001+08:00

im setting you free.
yes i am.

i love you. forever and always.

2009-09-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go."

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."

"Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together."

HAHAHA.

2009-08-31T03:23:00.001+08:00

despite the unpleasant evening,
something didnt fail to made me laugh my ass off! haha.

found this on the SIM blog...

<Taufiq17>: my idol scored a hat-trick of goals!! yeay!!
<Taufiq17>: sorry girls... hahaha..

2009-08-29T02:39:00.001+08:00

i hate myself for loving you even though it hurts so bad. :'(

2009-08-29T02:35:00.001+08:00

:'(

2009-08-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

UT IS OOVVVVVEERRRRRR!!!!
time to parrrtttttttaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!!

no RJs for a whole month! :)
no forcing myself to wake up in the morning to go to school! :)
one thing stands in my way.
and thats PP. hahaha. oh well.
just get it over and done with i guess.

now, how about a movie date for final destination?
It's M18 yo~! cooooollll or what.
i thought it was R21 so i was upset i wont be able to watch it.
miracles do happen. hahaha.

ok. im just damn bored right now.
hehe. toodles.

mirror mirror on the wall, who's the most stupidest of 'em all..

2009-08-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

that gotta be me.
because im so stupid that
i let you hurt me again and again
and still, no matter what, i keep on forgiving you

and even more stupid that,
despite how your fucked up attitude is,
i still havent give up on you.

if i have the power,
if my wish would come true,
i would wish to erase a certain memory of my life.
i wish i have never met you.

2009-08-23T14:24:00.001+08:00

yesterday was pure AWESOME-NESS!!!

cant wait to resume training on wednesday
and meet the same bunch on friesday. HAHA.

2009-08-22T00:08:00.001+08:00

take it and throw it all away.

2009-08-21T02:26:00.000+08:00

in one night,
everything just seemed to crumble down on me.
Fmylife..

Love scares the shit outta me.

2009-08-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

2 DOWN, 2 MORE TO GO.
i fcuking hate UTs!!

Im not sure if i should go out with him later.
the feeling is definitely no longer there.
i miss him not because i love him.
but because i miss the things we used to do together.

this week is pretty boring
with all the tests and exams.
moreover, we got no game this weekend.
i even got UT on sat 11 am. sheesh.

okay, im gonna play with zack baby.
i havent touched him for a week now due to
my really hectic schedule.
mwaaaaahhhhhhhhh......

i love my life.....

2009-08-17T10:55:00.002+08:00

my weekend was fcukin AWESOME yo~!
game went rather well. 5-1 to us.
joelle-1
clarisse-2
khadijah-3
me-1

so my line scored 4 out of the 5 goals yo~!
haha. cool or what... and then dinner with the team..

ytd was awesome too.
went to church with family and then thai express.
and met syafizah, nina and rigel at novena where we tot of eating donuts.
but in the end, we ate at b&j at united square.
and i really had a great chat with them.
but they bully me lor.... when they hungry, they say im the one. :(
haha. but still, it was fun.
planned on gg either ktv, pool or bowling. in the end, we just slacked
and saw shaula at marina sq.

today is pretty awesome too.
faci said no need do ppt. hahaha.
so im just reading up.
and im so excited to play with reena's stick later on. heh.

2009-08-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

i think im definitely better off when he's not around..
and thanks to reena and her faci,
they sure made my day.
totally enjoyed it. :)

but the moment he contacted me,
i suddenly feel like im not interested in msging back.
and i think its a good thing.
im just way too tired of being in love.
yeah.. i didnt know love can be so tiring...

2009-08-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

~ Take a second out to think about this: in your life you search and search for the right person for you. Every time you break up with someone you get one step closer to that person. You should look at moving on as getting closer to meeting the one. ~

2009-08-13T14:36:00.001+08:00

Having fever and a very bad headache.
Stupid me didnt go school AGAIN. Haiz.
I hate my fucked up attitude.

but at least i wont have to worry about
breaking down in public.

2009-08-13T00:36:00.001+08:00

i dont wanna feel hurt anymoreeeeeeeeeeee....

2009-08-13T00:18:00.002+08:00

im a mess right now.
my mind is full of negative thoughts..
im trying to stop but i just couldnt.
i feel badly hurt.

i dont know if i can take this any longer...
:'(

2009-08-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

:'(

2009-08-12T00:03:00.001+08:00

i had so much fun today..
a day well spent i should say..
i like it when i go crazy just like that.
HAHA!

i wanna play with my baby,
but it's already too late. :(

2009-08-11T09:31:00.002+08:00

i dreamed of something
that made me cry the second i woke up.
im not ready for love after all..

and right now, im not feeling very well.
i feel nauseated. should be due to lack of sleep.
i kept waking up when i just starting to fall asleep
and thus, the headache now.

PP, UT3, Div 2 and zac junior...
These are the things that should be on my mind right now.

2009-08-11T01:46:00.003+08:00

last year 3rd October 2008,
i wrote this..

" i hate to admit it.
but i guess i really miss you...
i still think of you once in a while..
still think of the things we did together..
if only i could turn back time,
i would never have let you go..
cuz i love you so much.."

i thought that if in the future,
we contact each other again
it must mean something.
but i guess it doesnt.
i dont even know you anymore.
and i can definitely say
that by coming back into my life from feb till now,
which is almost 7 months
and ruining me all over again,
i can definitely say i dont love you anymore.

but why am i still feeling something.
something i cant describe no matter how i try...

2009-08-11T01:36:00.002+08:00

im tired of trying to be a friend.
but i guess it's just not working.
we're too different for each other.
and i dont blame u for that.
so now, i'll just let nature takes its course.
but i do know that this wont happen again
cuz by december, i'll be changing number
its a good thing i guess.

god, please give me strength to overcome this trial.

2009-08-10T02:35:00.000+08:00

i didnt even do anything
to deserve what u are doing to me now.

:'(

2009-08-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

how i wish i had seen the ndp parade up-close..
it looked really AWESOME.
ohwell, why should i celebrate anyway?
im not even a singaporean. HAHA.
but i guess being here for 9 years makes me feel like im one.

i really gotta start on my PP.
and i havent even borrowed my books yet.

and again. i havent touched baby yet.
it's been more than 48 hours. :(

2009-08-08T22:02:00.001+08:00

"Just once, I want to fall in love, and it does not have to hurt in the end."

2009-08-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

"you'll never leave where you are
until you decide where you'd rather be."

2009-08-08T21:37:00.001+08:00

i wanna know how it feels like
to give someone all of your trust
knowing that he/she would never brake it.

i didnt do anything productive today.
havent even touched my baby the whole day. :(

2009-08-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

help me find joy in my everyday encounters.
help me find strength to face this trial.

2009-08-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

im feeling a little upset over it.
but at least im not that badly affected anymore.

2009-08-08T00:50:00.003+08:00

OMG. suddenly i feel so motivated.
And all thanks to Gary.
HAHA! When i found out he's almost done,
i suddenly got the motivation to do my PP.
did a lot of researches and since there are 1o parts to it,
i shall complete it in 10 days time. :)

oh ya. IMPORTANT things i need to do:
1) borrow school's library book
- "Hewlett-Packard journal"
- "Hewlett-Packard Company SWOT Analysis"
- "Portfolio Management: Optimizing for Success: Hewlett-Packard"
- "R&D Productivity: Understanding the Drivers & Enablers - Hewlett-Packard (HP) Case Study"
- "White Book - Hewlett-Packard + Compaq: Bold, But Not Strategic Enough & Too Risky for Shareholders Short-Term"

2) look for the book "HP Phenomenon" in public libraries

HAHAHA. shit. i sound like some freaking NERD right.
hehe. whatever. i just wanna do well for PP. heh.

PS. ALL THIS TO BE DONE BY 8 AUG '09, SATURDAY. :)

2009-08-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

im finding it hard to learn guitar now.
nevertheless, i shall not give up. :)

today was a rather fruitful day. heh.

2009-08-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

Today was rather good i guess.
skipped school cuz i woke up late
but turned up for a very very slack PT at the gym.

then watched basketball finals with sk, sheryl, peiling, linsin and rachel.
rp vs ite and ite's really damn good like WOW.

anyway, i badly wanna watch GI JOE.
i feel like watching in earlier
and then watch the hunting with him.
anyone up for movies?

thinking of getting a new mp3 next week of maybe the week after.
need to pay mable first, and also the licensing and jersey.
omg. i think i've used up ALL my savings.
need to start saving again.

"Simple things is what my heart beats for..
Cause thats me i dont ask for much
Baby having you is enough. "

2009-08-06T12:01:00.002+08:00

the only thing i need right now,
is a little faith and hope that
everything will be okay...

2009-08-05T23:26:00.001+08:00

i really wanna thank JQ for the book.
it help me saw my mistakes
and really enlighten me.

and now that i've accepted things,
i actually feel much better. :)

2009-08-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

im feeling fucked up. :'(

2009-08-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

PT was rather good today i should say.
The weather was a killer though.
the sun was being a huge friggin bitch!

haizz.. im emo-ing again.
i've not been this emotionally tired before.
im just really tired of everything.

i wanna play guitar to get rid of this feeling.
but at this time, i cant becuz it will disturb my family's sleep.
i guess i shall wake up early tom.

1) Do PP
2) Study for web-multimedia
3) Practise guitar
4) IRON CLOTHES

hmm what else uh?? haiz.. so many things to do.
and there's also trg and meeting late afternoon.
haiz. FML.

ANYONE WANNA CATCH GI JOE WITH ME??? :)
the thought cheered me up a little.

2009-08-04T15:42:00.001+08:00

im starting to miss him again.
slap mmmmeeeeeee......

2009-08-04T12:19:00.001+08:00

ah. fuck java.

11.2 yo!

2009-08-03T23:56:00.003+08:00

training was AWESOME!!! :D

beep test level 11.2 yo~!
could have done better.
but yeah, this is a really major improvement
as compared to my last timing which was what?
7++??

but i really wished i pushed myself more
cuz i know i can.
and if i did, i would have reached my goal of 12.
oh wells. better luck next time.
but everyone did really well.. :)

ok. off to play guitar and then sleep.
anw, thanks JQ! the book really means alot. :)

2009-08-03T00:16:00.003+08:00

even for just less than 2 hours,
we cant get along well.
u had to get angry over "small issues".
yes. small. they may be big to u
because u just wanna complicate things.
blame me for stupid reasons.
and really, im damn tired of this.

"i miss you".
was what u said 2 hours after we parted.
fcuking bullshit.
so why couldnt u go back with me?
becuz AGAIN, they was something more important.
but guess what? im done!
im actually glad i went home by myself.
even if i went back with u, it will be like going back on my own too.
really no difference.

how i wish there was no one at home
so that i can continue practising my guitar.
after i stopped, i started feeling fucked up again.
the guitar is indeed a good investment.
finally, something not related to floorball.
ok. that cheered me up.
off to sleep now.
beep me if there's anything. :)

2009-08-02T22:31:00.001+08:00

woooohhooooo!!!!
i finally bought my guitar...
but my day didnt go so well.

why is it so hard for us to be together even for a short while?
:(

2009-08-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!! shit shit shit! i've got 2 really BIG pimples.
how am i gonna go on sunday?!

hey, its a big deal ok! haha.
im quite scared to buy my first guitar though.

thank you lord jesus...

2009-08-01T01:52:00.002+08:00

honestly, it feels kinda great being friends with him.

thank u lord for answering my prayers yet again
despite all the wrongs i've done.
again, u were there for me when i needed u. :)

yeah, im pretty holy ain't i?

just one more thing i need to settle.

2009-07-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

today was definitely a better day.
went for a run with my younger siblings
and i kept pushing marvin and kathleen not to give up.
hehe. good sis right?

ok. i shall continue watching jabbawokeez's videos on youtube.
they're fucking awesome yo~!

2009-07-31T13:45:00.002+08:00

how pathetic is it to have someone make a copy of all your old msn conversations
and save it somewhere and plan to use it a some sort of blackmail.

haha. i know. really pathetic and disgusting in fact.
well, thats my twin sister mind you.
absolutely disgusting.

2009-07-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

i just need to have faith
and continue hoping that everything will be alright..

2009-07-31T11:28:00.002+08:00

now, if thats what u really want,
then i have nothing more to say.

i dont know whether to feel angry or upset or even happy.
but i just dun really wanna feel anything at the moment.

everyone faces some sort of obstacle.
for me, this is a really big hurdle at the moment.
the process will be difficult. yes. i have to admit.
but the outcome will be great. i trust myself on this
because like i've been saying, i managed to do it before.

i wanna take a nap.
beep me if there's anything. :)

2009-07-31T09:40:00.002+08:00

guess whatttt!!!
im getting my guitar on sunday. hehe.
and maybe next week, asics running shoes.
if i still got money uh.. haha.

anyway, plans for today include:

completing java problem 12 & 13 all by my own.
doing web multimedia from problem 11-13 on my own since i didnt turn up.
reading up on today's networking problem (which is stupid btw cuz the problem seems kinda easy yet, i skipped again)
and lastly, PP!

yeap. thats pretty much it. i dont think i have time to finish all of it though.
but i will try. :)

pon-star..

2009-07-31T09:19:00.001+08:00

ahhhh!! im skipping school again.
and because of stupid reason.

as a friend, will you do me the favour,
of asking me to move on?

2009-07-31T02:26:00.000+08:00

check out my old LJ a/c..
d-e-n-i-s-s-e.livejournal.com..
feel like switching back to that one.
that blog really contains alot of memories for me.
but most importantly, it was the blog i used
when i was trying to get over someone.
and honestly, that LJ blog really helped me alot.

ok. it's 2.27 now, off to sleep.
take care yo!

2009-07-31T01:28:00.002+08:00

i wanna do alot of things this weekend.
thinking of going roller-blading at ECP,
maybe just a simple day by the park..
of course will be going church on Saturday.
and hopefully, buy my guitar by Sunday.

mood: definitely happier. :D

2009-07-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

omg. i love the way jabbawokeez dance.
fcuking cool yo~!

2009-07-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

"Denisse, Don't Be Sad. It Could Kill You. Be Happy!"

- facebook quiz.

how hilarious!

2009-07-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

hahahaha.
fuck. that seriously made me wanna laugh damn loud can.

anyway, im super duper hungry.
have not eaten nor drank anything since
yesterday except for my sleeping pill.

i miss myself laugh. :D

2009-07-30T21:03:00.001+08:00

i've already accepted it.

whats next?

2009-07-30T20:34:00.001+08:00

i wanna feel what true love is like.

Please, just take me far far away from here. :'(

2009-07-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

this is affecting me, way way too much.

just let it go Denisse.

2009-07-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

i think im doing and saying things that hurt myself even more.
stupid ain't it?

2009-07-30T16:31:00.001+08:00

“Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself - no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are - completely; the good and the bad - and make changes as YOU see fit - not because you think someone else wants you to be different.”
(Stacey Charter)

2009-07-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

i need that strength to move on..

2009-07-30T15:50:00.004+08:00

im unlocking my blog now. not sure if its a wise decision but i dont wanna hide my feelings anymore.

yes. thats the reason why i decided to lock my blog. because im a coward. i dont want people to know how emotional i've been lately. as you can see, most of my entries or maybe all of them are damn emo.

suddenly, everything just feels out of place. thats why they say, treasure what u have because
u'll never know when its gone.

i cant trust anyone anymore.i want to. i want to open up my heart to them. but i just simply cant.

the only thing im waiting for right now, is to find someone who'll tell me,
"let me help u take away the pain u carry in your heart".

yeah. i've finally hit rock bottom. im just finding the strength to carry on at the moment.
i managed to do it before.why does it seem so difficult to do it again. tuesday was the worst day ever in my entire life. everything just went totally wrong. and at that moment, i felt like giving up. if u know what i mean. and then mom came into my room. i tried to stop my tears from falling but i just cant. and then she hugged me tight. that moment just blew me away.
the only person who i wanted to rely on, wasnt there. same as always. even when we were together, he wasnt there for me when i needed him most. it just proves that he's not the one meant for me. but i already accepted that. but why is it so hard to make friends with your ex.
is it really true that the guy will only wanna make friends with u if he's interested in you, and if he's not then u can forget about being friends?

yes. im a person full of regrets in life.
im losing myself in this battle for happiness.
who am i now? what am i living for?
how am i gonna spend the rest of my life?
and who am i gonna spend it with?
yeah yeah. im thinking too far.
slap me.

2009-07-30T15:44:00.001+08:00

now i realize, there are other people who are facing the same thing as me.
makes me feel better in a way that i thought i was the only hopeless one.

yes. this is the best time to have my friends around me.
but why am i pushing them away.

depression..

2009-07-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

"I think people are “stuck" in a state of depression because they have not cleared their emotional pain. The energy state of depression is so tremendous because it contradicts who we are and what we are meant to be."

2009-07-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

the worst day ever.

2009-07-28T19:31:00.000+08:00

yeah. thats why every guy i liked left me right?

thanks my own sister.

2009-07-28T01:30:00.001+08:00

It’s simply that he was my Everything, and he chose to leave

2009-07-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

i cant stop thinking.
i cant stop crying.

Why the fuck is this happening to me? :'(

cuz your hot and ur cold...

2009-07-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

im tired of the way you treat me.

you change your mind like a girl changes clothes.

HAHAHA! fucking true!

2009-07-27T01:46:00.001+08:00

Your Result: Trust Nobody

You don't trust easily or anyone at all. Something in your past has made you this way. Learn to trust and stop pushing people away or you will end up alone.

2009-07-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

"if it hurts so much why bother paying attention to."

thanks yati!
seriously, thats a damn good advice.

torres! torres! torres!

2009-07-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

friendly with SMU tomorrow.
hope everything goes well.

watched the liverpool-singapore match on tv just now.
and my sister is rightt....
Torres is fuckin HOT can!?!
haha. but there were other awesome players too.
the 2nd-5th goals were just amazing.
especially the last goal.
and i was kinda drooling when Torres took off his shirt after the game.
did ya see his ABS?!?!?!?! :P

miss you many many..

2009-07-26T01:38:00.003+08:00

yati! i miss u damn much.

while i was looking for this photo to add in for this entry,i took a quick glance in my pol-ite and ivp pictures. why are things so different now? is it because the people are different?
like no more rigel ,mw they all and that there are new people to play with? why is there such a big gap now? i really miss the pol-ite and especially ivp period. one of the best moments of my life. and the people were just AWESOME!! i really miss those times. :(

i shall not be blinded by love anymore.

Cameroid killed my boredom.

2009-07-25T04:05:00.001+08:00

2009-07-25T04:04:00.001+08:00

know when it is time to let go.

2009-07-24T23:03:00.006+08:00

DAMN!
stress no.1:
i found out that i gotta take 5 modules next sem. Know what that means?
No more free wednesdays. :(

how the hell am i gonna survive school?? i can barely attend one full week of lessons
even though i only have 4 modules in a week. tsk.

stress no.2:
i havent started anything for PP yet. :(
and there's like 2 freaking months left. aiyooooo....

stress no.3:
i still got alot of CE talks to go to. Fuck RP siaa....

NONO! Its fmylife.com siaa..

on a brighter note,
i found out from zheming that my course got attachment next year.
coolio!! :)

2009-07-22T21:51:00.001+08:00

i never ever want to feel this way again.

2009-07-22T02:17:00.003+08:00

Found this on Joreen's blog. :'(

i guess all along, he never looked at me the way i wanted him to.
i see the picture clearer now.
im happy for you. i really am.
i wish i can say the same for myself.

the one who is meant for me,
is somewhere out there.
i guess i've not met him yet.
but when the right time comes,
will i be brave enough, to give him all my love?

im feeling fucked up. :'(

2009-07-22T00:47:00.004+08:00

ahhh. i fucking miss this.
my northland hockey days. :'(

2009-07-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

PON-ED SCHOOL. AGAIN!!!
arghgghghg.

okay. i definitely feel that PT is way more fun than court trg.
why? why? why?

and i badly wanna get a new stick.
as well as my very own guitar.
i wanna grow money tree already uh. hahaha.

oh yeah. eclipse tomorro.
need to wake up at 8 to see it. hehe. :)

2009-07-20T15:17:00.002+08:00

really enjoyed lunch with Amanda girlfriend just now.
she and i are totally feeling the same way right now.
bored with our lives.
want to get out of the country.
the empty feeling.

it's no surprise i regard her as my best friend.

i really need a getaway.
this coming holiday perhaps?
i just need about a week to let go of things
and see new things.

i just wanna be anywhere but here.

2009-07-20T13:57:00.001+08:00

on the verge of breaking down. :(

2009-07-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

im keeping my options open.

but yeah. it's good to know
that i kinda miss him.
cuz when i dont, i feel rather empty.

HARRY POTTER WAS OOKAY btw.
not much action though.
and i was pissed with the 2 indian guys behind me.
they just couldnt stop talking. sheesh.
oh well. i cant wait for GI JOE and FINAL DESTINATION
to come out next month.
then soon, NEW MOON!
muahahahaha.

OH YEAH! did i mention?! i won a free gold class complimentary ticket.
hahaha. cool righhhtttt.... hehe. :)

2009-07-19T12:21:00.003+08:00

i feel like quitting the school floorball team.
same reason as those who quit already.
too time-consuming..

and im really stressed out
till i feel as if my hair's turning white!

i havent finish my CE points.
havent start on my PP.
havent study for tom and tues' UT.
and i can feel the stress of fyp next year already.

i wanna get married already lah.
haha. no way! not so early.
i still have dreams to pursue.
i think?

2009-07-19T12:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna enjoy life
like everybody else.

why does it seem so hard?

2009-07-18T20:23:00.002+08:00

the feeling is suddenly gone.
just like that..

it's a good thing,
i hope.

2009-07-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

im trying hard not to break down in class.

2009-07-17T10:25:00.000+08:00

i miss.....

2009-07-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

im tired of pretending nothing has changed.
thats it. im done.
clearly, it was wrong to trust someone ur type.
yes. ur type.
typical..

ur not interested in chatting with me
well, guess what..
me NEITHER. i just dunno why
im still hanging around.

2009-07-16T20:06:00.002+08:00

seriously, im starting to lose my patience.
really damn fed up.
i dont get why people get so paranoid
thinking that people are always talking about them.
sheesh. get a life man!

i need to spicen up my life.
its too boring at the moment.

somehow, because of the way u treated me,
my impression towards you changed.
so does my feelings.
maybe its better like that.

2009-07-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

people tagging nonsense at people's blog
and dont even dare to put their real name down.
pure nonsense.

i wish u happiness,
you say u hate me.
its just damn easy for u to enter and leave my life.
if this is how u want us to be then fine.
i shall grant ur wish.

you're free now.
im letting you go.....

2009-07-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

Someday,
I'll find someone, who will look at me
like how you look at her.

on MC till thursday.
temperature is at 39.3....
headache. very bad cough.
flu. muscle aches. what other else is there.
Thank god there's no sch tmrw.

im gonna take things easy from now on. :)

2009-07-14T16:20:00.001+08:00

LAST TEMPERATURE CHECK: 39.2!!!!!

and this was taken only a minute ago.

:(

2009-07-14T14:49:00.001+08:00

hahaha. my temp increased again.
now its 38.6 and im still in school.
lied to the faci that my temp is 37.3...
haha. cuz if i leave halfway, i get partial sia..

i dunno whether i should see a doctor or not..
cuz i already have my medicine..
but i think if i go, i will be like my younger siblings..
they got MC for 3 days..
hahaha.

ok. pay attention now.
java almost done! :D

2009-07-14T10:31:00.002+08:00

in class right now. 1st breakout.
i was so tempted to give school a miss but
i dun wanna waste grade so yeah.
im here... but i dun understand alot of things.

ahhh.. i wanna buy oreo waffle..
classmates ask to sneak in by the stairs..
but im not a sneaking in kind of person..
hehe. yeah. whatever right.
and i just got my grade for java UT... C+.
definitely have to buck up.

i miss u too.
but i just cant tolerate how u treat me anymore.
always a back-up plan.
i've lost all my trust in you.

2009-07-13T18:36:00.003+08:00

one word: TYPICAL.
seriousslllyyyyy...
the signs were there.
and i was just too stupid enough to ignore them.

im sick lahhhhhh...
i thought it was just a bad cough last night.
until i check my temperature in class this morning.
37.7.... but knowing that i'll get sent home if
i declare my real temperature, i submitted a fake declaration.
haha. and now, my temperature is at 37.9..
went home straight after school cuz i felt like fainting
even thought of taking cab home but waste money uhh..
so mom worked half-day only and she said that
my brother and sister also having fever.
but theirs is worse ok!!! bro's is 38.3...
sis' is 37.9 i thinkk..
and im pretty sure its all because of my aunt. grrr...

2009-07-13T09:09:00.000+08:00

hahaha. i guess im really sick after all.
37.7 and im in school.

2009-07-12T17:34:00.001+08:00

I cant help but feel stupid...

xoxo

2009-07-12T01:28:00.001+08:00

a tattoo of a broken heart.

2009-07-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

:'(